Aethen

I was in Pathways office the whole morning this day. I stayed there just to wait for my classes in afternoon. My schedule every Tuesday and Thursday is so boring. All my subjects that were enrolled in these days were scheduled in the time slot 1:00pm-7:30pm. I can’t do anything about it; I am in a block section. What I did is that I went to the office just to kill time and talk to the staff and volunteers who are staying there also. I usually play games installed in the computer if not, I make kulet or have a little chitchat with them. Some times I just sleep in the TYG room if I feel like not in the mood. But most of the time, purposely stay there just to supervise and moderate the youth group if it is mobilized well. One thing also, I simply want to spend my time for service whenever they need it. You might think that I don’t want to stay at home. You might suggest, why not stay at home in the morning and help do chores or why not rest and spent more time with your bed and prep...

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I have been to changes these days. but i have not changed. ...dealing with things that seems the purpose or reason is not clear. I can’t understand but, I am too affected. It all show how weak I am. Very vulnerable to factors that will threaten the oversimplified thing I have made. I always see situations so simple that you can live it easily and trouble-free. I always hold-on to things I wanted. And make all the possibilities to have it. I always thought that I know my self. but, not yet. I always know that I understand everyting. some. I always feel secure to him. I always say that I am okay and happy. Yes, I am. but, sometimes it's not real. I always make myself busy working with this stuffs that fulfills me. But, even without a purpose. I always do. blurred… I always say that I would change and grow. but, there is not difference, no progress. I hope I’ll always remember this in heart. work for it by heart. live it by heart.

I hate expectations. People expect a lot from me. I’m not that great you know, I’m no superman. I am self-sufficient. I believe I can manage extra baggages that are heavy, I can’t carry it up. Some said I am insecure. Hmmm…?! It left me thinking. Perhaps, I am. But, of course not. Such irony! I’ll be senior then. I just have had enrolled myself for my last term. Damn, how I resent the burdens that will come along with seniority. God bless. I want to control my life. But my life has its own life. How can I control it? [ nevermind this ]

Whaah! I can’t deem that time is running so fast – that a day will just become an hour and the next morning you wake up, you will just be surprised that it is your graduation day already. There are few days left before the opening of class this year. And I am very excited and thrilled about it, for I would now be experiencing my senior years. Whaah! Graduation is near also; I can smell now the bacon that is cooking. However, I am afraid of graduation for I am not sure if after it I will be confident enough to face and take my paths on my own. Looking back from the few years I been through in college I have evaluated myself so feeble and frail still. Some say I am statically gullible and very trusting in dealing and having matter to other persons. They say that it has become my weakness and I am vulnerable of it. On the contrary, I did not see it as a chink in my part in fact I feel win-win over it. A tamed wolf will best represent me in this aspect. I might simply appear to them as Mar...

I hope that the ending would be like blood and chocolates. But it would never be. Ours is different, it is more complicated than the mythical luguro love story. Life is sweet like chocolates, those days that we are both happy, we don’t worry about tomorrow, of what concern us as long as we are both together. We know that it will not last but it will be forever. Though it hurts, as red as the Blood I will still have the feeling I have before. I know and I am thankful that you feel the same way too. I’ll treasure every moment we have had, even how stupid some of those are. I learned and I’ll be a better person. Though this is the last stick of the potato fries, I still crave for gravy. Whaah! But, I think will not eat it. I’ll just keep it in the refrigerator. We will be Scientists of our own. Bestfriends we will be.

I could not express how deep I've been thinking these days. I don't have any answers to all the questions I have in mind. All that is left for me are memories of the previous. A memory that triggers my emotions to stop moving and start missing all the things. I just can't help but realize that I've been missing a lot of what I am. I cannot live out on my own. I can't do anything at all and just forget all you have shown or accept the fate of my condition. Is it true that I'm just afraid to accept reality as it is? Please.