endless nights, better days
Each night seems to be the longest night of my life not because I am always staying up late at night reading lectures of my professors or doing assignments or finishing a machine problem but because of feeling tired and toxic. Unlike any other day that I had, this feeling inside me keeps on growing each day. Feeling homesick might contribute to this feeling. My not so good work management on things I have to finish might tired me to death. Too much commitment might intoxicate me to feel this way.
Now I am walking along the dark side of the tunnel. No lights, no ends. Trusting the rebel in me in leading the way.
I told myself that I was strong but I was wrong. I thought that I was superman who can do everything but my alter-ego so powerful to weaken me as human being only.
I realized that not all things in life are meant to be. Life is meant to be.
I realized that not everything is a piece of cake, sometimes the cake can't be sliced to pieces.
I realized all of these but still I am stubborn to believe it. The rebel in me always wanted to fight back.
I guess I just have to continue to live my life the way I survive it. Maybe I am just tired.
Should I live this way? Do I need guidance to give me direction?
Now I am walking along the dark side of the tunnel. No lights, no ends. Trusting the rebel in me in leading the way.
Comments
Life's like that. Always smile.
Yes, will always smile, hannah.
Thank you for the comment.
ako usually pumapayat pag malapit na ang finals.
better do MEDITATION, this will help YOU feel cool and relax
bad mind ha? :)
See you in the summit, kuya. :D
btw, I'll b in Manila 3-9 Nov. Dong & I might meet up. U there?
take care always, always smile para di ka ma-sick... when brain smiles, body also smiles.
* sana may lalambing sa akin.,
well the world is not divided into black and white... we always have a choice. let's just keep the faith that we would be able to balance things to better ourselves :)
gogogo!
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Yeah. the world is black and white but sometimes it turns to gray.
Yes, better ourselves.
Good luck to your entry in being an emo blogger.
gray is good. black is bad and white doesn't exist. heheeh!
thanks for your vote :) mate :)
Good luck. hope you'll win the emo contest. :D
so things aren't right for you either? I feel the same way at the moment.Thank God, sembreak na.
natural lang yan na mapagod ka, ang dami mo kasing commitments eh!
here's a tip. Take every commitment as a compliment. Like, you have these commitments because you are being trusted by people.Para magkaroon ka ng motivation diba. Ay, HAVE A BREAK. that's the best thing to do, and learn to say no.
Nakakasawa na, pero wala tayong magagawa, that's part of living.
Chillax lang.
(:
Thanks trip. went home. will be having a break. :D